Smiling ,laughing and others related ..

I have these 2 BAD habits,and yes i call them bad because lately they are really making me alot of troubles .. !!!

For me smiling is a daily exersise ,i always smile at people everywhere even if i dont know them , sometimes i find it a good way to communicate with others , plus its something kind but i know its embaressing sometimes specially when they just stare and wonder why u r smiling .. !!!

The other bad habbit is laughing , ok here's the story am a girl who where ever i go people tell me that i make the place full of activity and fun ,i really love to laugh,laugh and laugh . i always make jokes just because am happy and want to have fun around , but today i really felt that am exagerating and some people get annoyed from me ..

we were at a meeting when a guy (a moving radio is the best description for him ) he started talking so my deskmate said in a low voice "once he starts to talk we wont be able to leave the office today" so i started to laugh ,and she got punnished from the manager because of me !!! i really felt guilty and she was soo angry and told me that i shouldn't laugh on everything happens ...

I dont know how to quit this behaviuor its embaressing me where ever i go .. !!!

Lonely ...

Today while testing my driving skills and roads (yes i had my qatari liscence last week and am driving ) i went to Villagio ( a Very Big mall in Doha ) , Don't ask me how many streets i've lost and missed , but since i have my own car and my mobile , Problem is solved ...

Anyway when i reached there , i was walking in this huge building ,trying to shop and catch a couple of things to wear (a very wrong definition for the word "shopping" to a lady like me .. ), i found myself really lonely , no one to ask his openion in sth. i picked , nobody to laugh with make jokes , and no friends to hang out with and have a cup of coffee after a long day ..

I sent my friend in jordan a msg wishing she was with me , how we used to hang out in Mecca mall if we have nth. to do , and go home walking on our legs (i didnt have a car that time )..

I really felt bad , how we have to sacrifice important things to get a better life and there is nothing perfect, i know if i stayed in jordan i will never have the chance to go shopping daily ,or drive my own car and go whereever i want ..

I really miss Amman days , having regular social life and alot of friends to have at least sth. to drink with ...

Dedicated to somebody ..

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me

Enrique iglesias - Sombody's me

My 2007 ..

When i went all over the blogs i found that everyone was writing about the yr 2007 and what achievements they did ,so i thought about my 2007 and i found that it was full of success starting from January till December al-7amdullilah ..

On earlier time of this year i really achieved a good goal , i finished my bachelors degree (no draseh anymore ) , isn't that a great feeling ..

the same month my sister got engaged and ready to prepare a new wedding , becoming the only single in the family .

2 months later i found the worst job ever ,but it was a temhsyet 7al for 6 months till i move to Doha , the very next month my sister received a new beautiful baby ( sama ) the calmest and most peaceful baby u'll ever meet (mashallah)

On May, my blog absar el-noor ,and i met most of u lovely bloggers who became more than friends and knowing each other by mail , the next three months were the last FULL summer i will spend in Jordan ..

Busy august came and gone so fast , there we started preparing for my sister's big day and packing for MY LEAVING DAY ,it was soo hard on me to transfer from a country to another leaving everything behind , friends ,lovely moments and Amman itself ..

Although it was a VERY boring 2 months i spent jobless but at least i met great ppl in my new job on November , and finally i spent a great December with my family and my beloved ones and enjoying the EID in Jordan ...

As i mentioned it was a full year from January till December , Wish u all a happy 2008